Well, long time no blog. To say I’ve been crazy busy would be an understatement. Work has gotten extremely busy and, add to that, going to school and …. wait for it …. dare I say a boyfriend (that sounds so silly to say at my age!). Let’s just say I’ve been seeing someone for a little while now. Okay, deep breath – major commitment issues on my part, but I’m getting used to it. I hate that I’ve been so busy because you know as well as I do that the first thing to go out the door of a fat girl’s life is 1) working out and 2) eating right. Both of those have been such a struggle lately, but I’m winning so far.
With all the stress, the first thing I want to do is eat and then when I get a free moment, I want to put my feet up and relax. I truly wish I was one of those people who respond to stress by aggressively working out. I like it after I’m there, but why is it the most difficult thing to do is to commit to going and then walking in and just doing it. If I didn’t have to meet my trainer, I certainly would be slacking off. Wouldn’t it be great if you could take a pill and be filled with motivation and energy! Wait – is that heroin? I remember the craze in fashion used to be “heroin chic” or skinny to the point of skeletal. Ha! I’d be the fattest heroin addict ever! And I love my trainer, but I always accuse her of hating me when we work out. No one else puts me through so much pain or sweat (except my mother and she’s in Louisville). Go ahead and convince me that it’s good for you! Yes, I know it is; but I truly wish there were magic words to make me love it. I guess I’ll just stick with the same ol’, same ol; – good health and longer life.
Last week, I was having lunch with some friends and the conversation turned towards the old job experiences we’ve had over the years and it caused me to remember something I hadn’t thought of in years. I used to work at St. Francis Hospital downtown back in the day and used to get to work at about 6:30-7:00 a.m. every day. I used to come in the side physician’s entrance so I would sometimes come in with a doctor. I was walking down the hall one morning and could feel someone coming up behind me; when they passed me, out of the corner of my eye, I saw that it was this one particular cardiothoracic surgeon who used to arrive at about the same time I did every morning. Anyway, he was a rapid walker and was coming up behind me fast and – no kidding – when he passed me said to me, “Speed it up young lady; you need it.” I laugh about it now, but then I just went into my office, which was secluded anyway, and ate all the snacky stuff I had hidden in my desk drawer. I haven’t thought about that instance or that physician for many, many years, but there’s one thing I wish I could do and that’s look him up and remind him of what he said and to look at me now! Knowing him though, he’d probably still tell me I needed it. Ha!
I did something today that I cannot believe I did. I actually no-showed for my appointment with Dr. Fowler to discuss my next surgery! This shows how busy and crazy it’s been for me. I NEVER no show and I especially NEVER no show for Dr. Fowler 1) because it’s important to me and 2) because it’s for something fun and positive, and 3) I just like Dr. Fowler – he’s cool. Now I know surgery is not fun, but this is the big one I’ve been looking forward to. I’m so excited for this one because we’re going to do my legs and that’s always been my huge problem area. So, again, my apologies to Dr. Fowler (if you’re reading this – I know how valuable your time is – I’m a medical office manager and trust me I know!). I’ll reschedule though and I can’t wait to see what he comes up with as far as his plan of treatment for my legs and thighs! I’ll definitely keep you posted! Oh, and I really cannot stress how much I can’t wait for this surgery as my school mate (and former friend), took a video of me bowling the other night from BEHIND!!! OMG! Let me formally apologize to anyone who’s had to stand behind me – I had no idea it was that bad. But, can you believe someone who calls you friend would actually take a video or even a snapshot of you from behind. Notice I said “former friend”. Actually, I’m kidding on the former friend part, but not the fact that they filmed my butt! It reminds me of that one blog I did entitled “Help, my butt seems to be missing” – Well, trust me, it’s been found!